Love Me Tender, Love Me True

This Xmas marked our first anniversary together. Two extremely different people whom only have one outstanding thing in common which is their love for one another and that's about it, I'm afraid to admit. The rest is best summed up as different as night and day or hell and heaven. And indeed this relationship has been anything but hell or heaven literally. Yet whatever said and done, one year passed by rather tad quickly and believe it or not, we're still trying to find that elusive middle ground; something which has deserted and outwitted me thus far, sadly.

Will it be another year at least or will this really last? Frankly my heart says, 'I have no idea but I wish it will last and last'. Yet my logic and rational mind can morbidly vouch a number to doubt that after analyzing the whole relationship and dissecting it into minute details.

When in my past relationships whereby everything was remarkably too smooth and too good to be true, they ended somehow despite all that and the longest relationship I had was in fact 3 and half years.

Now coming to this 1 year old roller coaster ride, my heart is saying one thing and my mind is saying the other. They are both always against each other. Despite the never ending tussles, the relationship has ushered itself into its first anniversary. Maybe this time it will work? Maybe out of the norm is indeed what I need to have a long lasting relationship? Perhaps that's why the previous relationships all turned sour just because they all followed the usual rules and expected norms?

And mighty patient and forever forgiving Felix would always retort, 'Why you think so much or look so far ahead? Just enjoy this very moment. Ask yourself what do you really wish for in a relationship?'.

My answer has always been and is simply just, ..... just to have someone by my side at the end of the day whom truly cares and loves me for what I am with my flaws and all. That's all.

Out Of The Cocoon

Last weekend marked a hermit's return to civilization, so to speak. I'd waken up from my slumber hibernation and crept out of my comfortable cocoon. Timely coincided with the return of my other half, of course. Yes, Felix has come back for a month long holiday and I'm back to catch up with friends.

The first social event was none other than brother Alex's birthday dinner celebration at Bijou, Mont Kiara last Friday. Frankly, I almost didn't make it as I was waiting to pick up Felix from the airport. You see, boyfriend's MAS flight was initially scheduled to take off at 11.35am on that same day and if he had indeed managed to board that flight, we would be able to attend the birthday dinner party together in the evening. But as fate or rather mechanical technicality had it, his flight only materialized after a 12 hours delay. In the end, I attended the dinner alone. But I was glad to be able to make it nonetheless and had great company and food. Took a glass of mojito, white wine and a shot of Absolut vodka before driving later (very sober still, no worries) to KLIA and picked up Felix whom only arrived at 2.30am. Oh, I received my 2nd Xmas gift, a much thoughful book 'A New Earth - Awakening To Your Life's Purpose' by Eckhart Tolle from my Secret Santa whom revealed himself to me that night (since he couldn't make it to this year's Paul's Xmas party in Malacca). And Felix gave me 3rd Xmas gift, 'Rubaiyat Of Omar Khayyam', a poetry collection translated by Edward Fitzgerald.

On Saturday, after a hearty breakfast in bed, we then adjourned to Gardens, Mid Valley KL for Xmas shopping and watched, 'The Princess and the Frog". We had wanted to catch 'Avatar' in 3D initially but there were no seats. So we settled for a Walt Disney cartoon instead. I particularly loved the songs as they were jazzy and right up my alley. The movie's storyline as such was simple and nothing much to shout about. After the movie, we headed back home for dinner at my regular favourite "Ah Tuan Ee's" resto in SS2. Momma Rose was lazy to cook and the whole family, Felix included, had Nyonya food then. I highly recommend this place if you're a fan of Nyonya cuisine. To end the evening, we had 湯圓 (tang yuan or glutinous rice flour) as mom had cooked them in conjunction with the Winter Solstice celebration.

The next morning, we met up with LCG for a hearty dimsum breakfast at Imperial, BSC. It was long overdue, I know, to catch up with LCG. Love her patience for bearing with me after all this while. She's such a gem and lovely company for a beautiful Sunday. Since we had some time to kill before our Avatar movie at 2.30pm, we then went to LCG's mansion after breakfast to check out her hedgehog pet by the name of Toto. Felix of course loved that spiky creature while LCG just like a proud momma couldn't stop rambling away of her son. As for me, the mansion definitely got my attention more than that hoglet.

Weekends in Mid Valley are a real nightmare, I tell ya. Kinda reminded me again why I hate crowds and being ever so comfortable in my hermit's cave in the first place. Parking was a pain as you could not even make your way into those parking bays. We were fortunate to make it in time for the movie at Signature. Seriously, if you really want to watch and enjoy 'Avatar', I highly suggest the 3D version. It's worth every penny and you won't regret it. Needless to add, we loved it!

Bro Jason only managed to join us for dinner after the movie in Gardens. We had Chinese cuisine at Purple Cane Tea resto after choosing over Canto-i which sadly didn't have that much of selection for variety of dishes to go with rice. We'd ordered like 6 dishes in all with rice and the 3 of us wiped them out slate clean and all. Anyway, it was great to catch up with kiddo bro, Jason after a long absence. We ended the evening with our last stop at the bookstore in Amcorp mall, PJ where my sister gave Felix the pop out book, Narnia as a Xmas gift. And I got a soft toy huggable puppy and a book, 'No Country For Old Men' by Cormac McCarthy from her for my 4th Xmas gift!

Xmas came real early this year, eh.

Breakfast In Bed

There's a certain unmistakable romantic novelty about breakfast. Don't believe? Well, read on then on my most favourite meal of the day and how there's this lingering romance notion attached with nothing but a plain simple meal, you think.

Breakfast, the first and single most important meal of the day since time known to men. Well, as the saying goes; breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dine like a pauper. The fact is most of us aren't luxurious enough to implement that and pamper ourselves with a hearty breakfast to begin with and rather unfortunate. We're either too busy at work or simply no appetite to breakfast like a king, many argued.

But I just love breakfast, don't you? I can have the heartiest meal first thing in the morning and skip the following lunch or dinner, I don't mind. Just indulge me with whatever dim sum, sausages, bacon and ham, scrambled eggs, hash brown, mushrooms, tomatoes, baked beans, french toast or butter and jam with croissants or toasts with Nutella or peanut butter, pancakes, crepes and a cup of good old hot coffee, I'll promise to be quiet the whole day and extra nice!

What so romantic about it then you may ask?

Well, I just love the whole romantic idea of having breakfast in bed with a loved one. You know after snuggling with each other and a good snooze, you wake up to a brand new day ( and his woody/stiffy or morning glory ), fresh and hungry ( don't know about the rest but I tend to have a voracious post coital appetite ) for food! And what a better way to have breakfast in the bed with your lover. You get to enjoy the food together and maybe feed him even. You then start planning the day with him. He might wipe that small crust of crisp bread on your chin or even better lick off that smudge of cream on your lips. And before you know it, dessert is on the way. Blissful, isn't it?

Breakfast In Bed ~ Dusty Springfield